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Wed, Aug. 25th, 2010, 08:37 pm
the_silent_army: Shane

Hi, I'm Shane. I'm 24 and male, looking for a job right now, trying to sort out my life post-major relationship transformed into long distance, growing sour relationship, as well as post-financial crisis.

Specific for this community, I have issues with amphetamines that come and go and have had a history of taking hallucinogens. Ideally, I would not use drugs at all. I didn't for a long time, but lately... Things aren't going so well. I have been known to have anger issues at times that result in punching myself, walls, throwing things, and all that jazz, but never violent towards people -- I try to control all this. Otherwise, that's about it. No bi-polar, no OCD, no anxiety disorders, no dissociative disorders, but of course, there is a bit of old fashioned, unmedicated depression -- at least not officially medicated or on any consistent basis. And there are definitely sleep issues. No psychosis -- not even on drugs do I really lose my sense of understanding reality, at least not often. Delusions, no. Hallucinations, only as a result of no sleep/drugs. I was a psychology student, so interesting minds interest me.

I'm interested in trying out adding whoever would be interested in being my friend I guess (because that's all adding people from addme communities is, a trial), but I'm particularly interested in meeting somewhat local friends. As such, I live in the San Antonio, Texas area. I often go up to Austin and have a lot of friends in San Marcos and New Braunfels, and various smaller towns between. If you want to try being friends, let me know, but especially if you're familiar with any of those towns.

I like a lot of music, but mostly I like first wave screamo and early emotive hardcore, indie rock (particularly older albums by the band Modest Mouse), and various EDM (Electronic Dance Music) genres. I grew up on hardcore/punk, though my musical taste is a lot more diverse now.

I'm a liberal, but I'm not a hippie or a bleeding heart. I'm an ex-idealist who has fallen into cynicism -- an ex-radical socialist who now is pretty sure that mankind is just fucked and I have no idea what the long term, ultimate solution is. I do know that if capitalism is to persist, it should be limited, checked, and regulated, and some form of state/established body of people should utilize taxes to fund social programs that enhance the quality of society. Lately, I lean towards balance and Centrism. Social democracy sounds good to me, if libertarian socialism is just too flawed an ideal to actually work out. I realize there is much to learn from capitalism, just as there is much to learn from socialism. An extreme of either is probably a bad idea. All that said, I don't write about politics all the time. That just gives you a good idea about where my mind has been.

I'm an Atheist, and I am a very firm in my knowledge that there is no such thing as any god. I believe in science and logic. I will not be afraid to say this in my personal journal, and while I don't care what you believe, if you have a problem with reading of my atheism from time to time, you may have a problem adding me.

Let me say that I have no expectations of you to align with my music, my ideas about religion, or my politics, though it could be cool if you did. No one I know really likes half of my music and if the country were to erupt in civil war, it is likely that my best friend and I would be on different sides. So... As long as you can tolerate my ideas, you're good. I can tolerate yours -- most likely. I'm very open minded, but you probably have to be somewhat open minded (and certainly not uptight) in order to not be offended by me.

When I was in school, I studied psychology with a minor in writing. I classify as a junior, but I didn't finish and I'm not currently enrolled because I am poor and have financial issues that interfere with focusing on school. It would be nice if one day I could finish school. I'm very scholarly and academic, despite this.

I like anime, RPGs, and nerdy stuff like that.

I'm trying to lose weight I gained while living with the girl. Making a bit of progress, but not quite there.

I always write with complete sentences, proper spelling and grammar -- typos aside. I sometimes consider myself an artist of words. Occasionally I post poetics, but not too commonly.

I'm very honest and for real on my journal, though it is just about exclusively friends only these days with occasional exception.




And there you go. That's me.

Wed, Sep. 1st, 2010 03:11 pm (UTC)
jenn_cant_dance

Added.

Wed, Sep. 1st, 2010 05:49 pm (UTC)
the_silent_army

Word.

Wed, Dec. 15th, 2010 07:59 pm (UTC)
notxdeadxyet

Randomly stumbled on this post and then went off to peek at your LJ.
You're smart. I like smart. Not enough of it in the world.
However, I think you're probably way less crazy than I am and that makes me hesitant to add you.
But if you were to add me, I would add you back. Just saying.